Saturday, January 26, 2013


Okie. I really should be sleeping now but well, I will just like to pen down some stuff. I am thinking about my life. Life is not perfect. It never is. I think that life is not fair too but sometimes when you look at it the other way round, it just seems kinda fair from what I have observed in general.

Let's take some examples. For me, I will categorize my life into Family, Love Relationship, Friends, Studies/Work, Money, Social and General Outlook in Life. Some phases in my life would include Primary School, Secondary School, Polytechnic, University and Work. Prior to Primary School, I was too young to remember much.

Primary School

Family - Ok.
Love Relationship - None, of course.
Friends - Good.
Studies - Average.
Money - I can't remember my allowance then.
Social - Good, I think.
General Outlook in Life - Too young to ponder over this then.

Secondary School

Family - Ok. But I had irritating cousins around who could drive me nuts sometimes.
Love Relationship - None.
Friends - Ok. Actually, I had less friends in Secondary School than in Primary School.
Studies - Not that good.
Money - I can't remember my allowance then. Really.
Social - So-so.
General Outlook in Life - Too young to ponder over this then.


Family - Ok.
Love Relationship - Brief one. It was just simple puppy love. Nothing much so still ok.
Friends - Very Good.
Studies - Very Good.
Money - Overspent.
Social - Good.
General Outlook in Life - Good.


Family - Good.
Love Relationship - Disastrous during my last semester.
Friends - Ok. Didn't have many friends in University compared to Polytechnic due to different schedules.
Studies - Not good. Worrying.
Money - Overspent.
Social - Good.
General Outlook in Life - Ok.


Family - Good.
Love Relationship - Good.
Friends - Ok.
Work - Not so good.
Money - Sufficient. But have to start thinking about buying house, etc.
Social - Not good. Either I have no time to socialize with friends or they have no time to socialize with me. Or I am really tired to go out. Wonder if it has anything to do with age or..?
General Outlook in Life - Sometimes, I am quite bleak about my future. I am not too sure what to do. Or when I know what I want to do, I am not given the opportunity to do it. I do not want to be greedy. living a simple life may not be that easy in Singapore.

So as you can see, if one aspect of my life is good, another one will be not so good. Hm.. I guess life is sort of balanced out in a way? I regret doing some things and regret not doing some things. Life/people get more complicated when they are older (really!) but I am also improving my EQ skills. However, I wonder how come people can be so tactless and low in EQ but they are the happiest. They just say and do what they like. Hm..

Anyway, I just want to have something more balanced. I hope and pray that I can and it will happen =)

PS: I think my XXXXXXXXX --> I think Diana and Robin will understand but I have to XXX because I realize that there are quite a number of people who will read my blog and I XXX it is to be tactful. Nothing to do with anyone. It is just that my luck in XXX is really terrible and one thing just leads to another.


robin said...

i will always give you all my love and support dear =)

elderflowertea said...

@robin: Yeah but how come I keep feeling so fan and troubled over this issue?

Robin said...

After I get my new job soon I am very sure everything will get more smoother and better for the both of us dear

I will ensure it will happen and we can continue planning ahead for more good things to come