Hi all~ Blogging this from the school library. Have told my student's mum that I'll be teaching until this month. She's quite okie with it but I still feel bad and guilty towards them =( Oh well~

Nowadays, I keep getting pek chek easily. Don't know why leh.. Seems like there are a lot of people who piss me off. My student also made me very pek chek, kept calling him to do his work but he's so slow. Kept wasting time and in the end, I have to stay on for an extra 20mins OT. And I even took the wrong LRT back =.= Went one big round. Someone 幸灾乐祸 lor. So bad =/ Anyway, I am seriously considering quitting tuition but don't know how to 开口 to tell the mum. Like very bad leh. Headache~

NTU's final year engineering student stabs professor

So scary and sad~ A promising young life has been lost just like that. To think that he was a smart student who came to Singapore on an Asean scholarship. Hm.. I wonder if he did what he has done due to too much stress. Better handle stress appropriately and don't be too extreme. May he rest in peace and the professor get well soon. For more info, please refer to http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/412450/1/.html

Many thanks to everyone who is concern about me. I'm fine, I really am. I should stop feeling stress and guilty. Must learn to relax a bit. Haha~ Today was a relaxing day, nice and pleasant. Even the weather is great! =) Met with Wen Min at PS to collect some shoes for the photo shoot. The Image Turn's boss is very nice and friendly. Shared with us his business experiences and stuff. Learnt quite a number of things from him. After that, I met up with Jeffery. I asked him some tough and ridiculous questions. But.. who knows? It may happen in real life. Anyway, I seemed to cheer up asking bo liao questions leh. Hm.. I really miss just being happy and not having to think about projects, assignments and stuff. Come to think of it, I really should relax, exercise a bit and just enjoy myself sometimes. Therefore, I cannot wait for my birthday! A good reason/excuse to play! Heehee xD Jeffery helped a lady and was on "Just for laugh" --> something like that.. I forgot. So, do look out for him on tv one day. Haha~

Spent an enjoyable time at my house with Jeffery. I shall change my viewpoint. It is not time wasted for me. Heehee~ In Econs, there's an opportunity cost for everything. So, it is okie lah. Yay! Just wanna be happy and at peace =) And somehow, now I suddenly don't feel guilty for not replying to smses or taking a long time to reply. Don't know if it's bad to the sender(s) but I don't care le. They can happily flood my phone. I just hope that they are understanding lah, if they are not, lalala~ not my business also. Hee~

Oh yeah, I got 20.5/35 for my macro. That tough paper. Although I wasn't that happy about it, heng, I've passed! Coz that paper really sucked man~ Hope to do better in the final exam bah. Don't know my results for the EC2374 quiz yet though. Hope will be better than macro. Okie, I shall go to sleep soon as I have an 8am lecture tomorrow. So tired. I need more sleep. Haven't managed to watch my macro webcast yet but I will definitely do it tomorrow after tuition. I shall go straight home after tuition tomorrow and no more procrastinating. Yeah, so good night to everyone. Sweet dreams =)

PS: Ah, I really must learn from Regina. Able to juggle so many things. 佩服，佩服。

Many issues kept appearing.. Today, I was reminded of Benjamin Chia's incident. Haiz~ I don't know why but you seem to sound like Benjamin Chia sometimes. Have such high expectations for me. This is a form of stress. I don't think I can live up to your expectations. My emotions have taken a roller coaster ride recently also. Anyway, if I really cannot take the stress, I'm sorry but I have to say byebye to you.. just like what we have done to Benjamin. When the time comes to let go totally, no matter how unwilling I am, I will still do it. I hope we don't end up like Ben and us. I used to be tired physically but I'm getting tired emotionally too. I hope you meant what you have said, if not I'll just be wasting my saliva =(

Nowadays, I keep letting too many things affect me and I will lose my concentration. After I've put down the phone, I feel like crying again coz whenever I think of the pile of work that I need to do, I just feel so stressed and disappointed in myself. Although the chat was good and enjoyable but after putting down the phone and seeing that the time is 4:37am, I felt guilty for being on the phone for so long. If not, I could have at least gotten some work done. Tears just flowed down. Hm.. maybe I can cry easily too. I cannot eat normally and sleep normally anymore. My appetite is getting smaller and I cannot sleep at night. I need someone to be there for me and support me, not to add on to my stress.

PS: I hope that you really love me and want the best for me.

I was so tired that I didn't go for my macro lecture. Busy with retyping my MKT2413 Problem Set 1 also. Sianz~ And my neighbours woke me up early in the morning with their knocking and drilling!! Eeyer, so pek chek lor. Really don't know why I feel so pek chek and pissed off easily nowadays. Guess I need to improve on my stress management skill. Speaking of that, am just wondering, next time will my husband stand up for me and tell those neighbours to be more considerate? Heehee~ I want a brave husband. Oh my~ Seems like I like to see him get involved in arguments and fights because of me. Hm.. Siao liao. Although I'm tactless and can stand up for myself, I haven't plucked up the courage to go and argue with my neighbours lor.. Seriously. Scared of them leh =/

We had a talk, things got much better. But something else happened again. Hm.. I really don't know what to say or feel towards that incident. Anyway, I believe that love has to be shown through actions and not words. And I also don't know why my life can suddenly become quite dramatic. Am beginning to understand Jy's drama last time. Oh well~ I'm tired now so.. will update on the kbox outing soon. Feel damn busy nowadays with many things to do. I really hope for time to slow down.

"Hope for the best and prepare for the worst" --> suddenly I like this phrase a lot xD

Nowadays, even when I go to sleep I also feel stress making me cannot sleep now. Even my Mum has given up asking me to sleep early, why can't you just give up too? This is my life, I'm responsible for myself. Even if I fall sick, it's also my own business. I don't need another person to control my life and tell me what to do! I just want to do what I like. Why are you trying to change me? I always hate it when people say that they are telling me what to do for my own good. Why can't they just trust me enough to let me decide what's the best for myself? I'm not a 3 year old kid, so stop treating me like one!

Ah yoh~ I realise I feel stress easily and I love myself too much that I want lots of personal space. I don't want to be/feel controlled lah~ pouts~ I want to determine my things by myself. You can give me ideas and suggestions but please don't force it upon me to take them.